A few weeks back, I got a little upset because someone told me what they wanted, and in the message he said, "I just don't know what you wanted from me."
This is when I pause! What I want? damn it man. I don't need you to give me anything. I can provide for my damn self thank you very much!!
But since that talk, I have been doing nothing but thinking (what i do best) and i realized, i do have wants because no matter how much i can provide for myself, a little companionship never hurt anyone.
I realized that i want someone who when they find out I'm sick comes to see me just to caress my hair and put me to sleep.
I want someone who will call me just to hear my voice not to really tell me anything but just to say hey!
I want someone who can make me laugh mid day for no reason at all!
I want someone who can meet my class with his swagg and when we go out we breaking everyones neck.
I want a great hugger and an amazing kisser! (a simple kiss to the forehead every once in a while)
Im interested in a MAN
an educated man, with ambition for days, with a strong faith and great goals.
who will enjoy my natural beauty but also adore my made-up face
someone who will enjoy my corny horrible jokes, but still laugh!
My wants are not money things, hell you don't even have to be my boyfriend... Just be my Boo thang...
until next time
Natural Beauty
Wednesday, February 15, 2012
whats your plan?
This is it! the time is now. We Have to make a plan. I tell myself, "Indigo, you are 21 years old. What do you want to do with your life?" then i sit down and brain storm about what I want to go down... how I want it to go down and then I WRITE it down.
- I will become a successful Journalist
-I will become a successful actress
- I will create a memorable woman
- I will not die before making a difference in the world
And the list is still growing! Just keep your eyes peeled for me! It'll be worth the wait!
Natural Beauty
- I will become a successful Journalist
-I will become a successful actress
- I will create a memorable woman
- I will not die before making a difference in the world
And the list is still growing! Just keep your eyes peeled for me! It'll be worth the wait!
Natural Beauty
Sunday, October 9, 2011
So he txt'd me
So the other day he text'd me
yeah my ex boyfriend from about a year ago
and he explained to me why he broke up with me
yeah my feeling were hurt! and still are
but come on for you're ex girlfriend...
apart of me wishes you never even bothered to hit me up. maybe id be ok... better not knowing
was it really worth it?
why did you waste your breath telling me you loved me?
LOVE?
oh how love is soooo overrated... nd thats why that would be tatted on a finger of mine because its NOT REAL
it can't be... if it was... why would it hurt so much!
why does like even hurt so much, sheesh....
yeah so he txt'd me...
trying to make this work
sorry but if you broke up with someone you "loved" for a past relationship because of SEX then we won't work now... cause I'm celibate! bam
Natural Beauty
yeah my ex boyfriend from about a year ago
and he explained to me why he broke up with me
yeah my feeling were hurt! and still are
but come on for you're ex girlfriend...
apart of me wishes you never even bothered to hit me up. maybe id be ok... better not knowing
was it really worth it?
why did you waste your breath telling me you loved me?
LOVE?
oh how love is soooo overrated... nd thats why that would be tatted on a finger of mine because its NOT REAL
it can't be... if it was... why would it hurt so much!
why does like even hurt so much, sheesh....
yeah so he txt'd me...
trying to make this work
sorry but if you broke up with someone you "loved" for a past relationship because of SEX then we won't work now... cause I'm celibate! bam
Natural Beauty
im tired of the bull shit
Im getting so frustrated. LIKE SERIOUSLY! i just want what I can't have and i feel like this is only getting worst. i feel annoying as hell to everyone yet no one has told me i am ! I just wanna crawl in a ball and be by myself because thats how its gonna be or seems that way. Why doesn't happiness come to those who deserve it most! i deserve it I want it but i don't wanna seem desperate to get it from the one person i want. THis is so freaking aggravating... apart of me just wants to cry but i know that won't fix anything... and while i get my invites to stay with him, i still feel like I'm not the one who he really wants to be there. I'm digging my own hole.. i feel it. can someone just kick me in and make this all go away! sheesh! i really did lose my best friend. borders were crossed that shouldn't have now i talk to him about stuff we use to talk about it and he clearly feels awkward... i want some sort of answer in my dream tonight! something telling me to fall back. whether i stay away from twitter or what ever just wanna feel missed or needed cause i don't... not even the least bit from ppl who should or i think should at least! ughh a shot is in order right now.. too bad i have class tomorrow! =/ maybe tuesday!!! night!
Natural Beauty
Natural Beauty
Thursday, September 22, 2011
Damn
Damn yo
his absence left me alone with my thoughts
and my thoughts kinda went like this
He's messing with someone else
no better yet he went back to the "lil girl"
i mean thats cool cause then we will be just friends again
and then maybe i can take up that date.
But I really liked him
but good thing i didn't fall completely head over heels
cause then this would be bad news bears part two
Good job indigo.
Damn he aint even thinking bout me
wth did i do?
you didn't do anything Indigo
wait *phone rings*
oh sh*t its him nd its not a txt its a call
Conversation:
me: hello
him: (sexy voice) Hey lil lady what you up too
me: nothing watching the game
him: ok well I'm on the turnpike be home shortly. we have a long night nd i still gotta catch up on the game but you'll probably be asleep by then
me: alright let me know when you get home
(a little small talk)
him: ill txt you when i get home
me: ok
so back to my thoughts
maybe he does still care or he's putting up a good front
GEEZS i just want all of someone ... its about that time!
When will I ever find mr. right because mr right nows keep popping up in my pictures
& honestly I'm kinda over it!
Until next time =/
Natural Beauty
his absence left me alone with my thoughts
and my thoughts kinda went like this
He's messing with someone else
no better yet he went back to the "lil girl"
i mean thats cool cause then we will be just friends again
and then maybe i can take up that date.
But I really liked him
but good thing i didn't fall completely head over heels
cause then this would be bad news bears part two
Good job indigo.
Damn he aint even thinking bout me
wth did i do?
you didn't do anything Indigo
wait *phone rings*
oh sh*t its him nd its not a txt its a call
Conversation:
me: hello
him: (sexy voice) Hey lil lady what you up too
me: nothing watching the game
him: ok well I'm on the turnpike be home shortly. we have a long night nd i still gotta catch up on the game but you'll probably be asleep by then
me: alright let me know when you get home
(a little small talk)
him: ill txt you when i get home
me: ok
so back to my thoughts
maybe he does still care or he's putting up a good front
GEEZS i just want all of someone ... its about that time!
When will I ever find mr. right because mr right nows keep popping up in my pictures
& honestly I'm kinda over it!
Until next time =/
Natural Beauty
Monday, August 29, 2011
20 Y. O
They always say your youth is the times of your life. Well my 19-20 years have been very stressful. Financially, education wise, figuring out myself... man its a lot. still don't know what I'm gonna do when i graduate and HELLO INDIGO. I graduate this year!
I hope 21 brings me more! and i want 21 to be the TIME of my life and take the past and make it all more and more of a living experience!
Natural Beauty
I hope 21 brings me more! and i want 21 to be the TIME of my life and take the past and make it all more and more of a living experience!
Natural Beauty
Sunday, August 7, 2011
WOW!
Today, was really something else. I saw him, and oh how that trip down memory lane just didn't seem so distant.
It was not distant only because, I go down it ever so often. But seeing him did make me miss the old him and when there was an us but it didn't make me miss how hard i got played.
I honestly am my biggest critic, but as i told one of my good friends, after losing him i just simply feel like I'm simply not good enough for "my type" of guy or any potential. In the mist of telling one of my guy friends this, whom i secretly have a crush on, he fell asleep on me... but any who
I'm glad i was able to speak to him to show that i am a bigger person but that fact that i still couldn't speak in a complete sentence because i was embarrassed just made it seem like i want him still which i don't i just wanna know why things didn't work out
after speaking to my friend in Florida who still manages to keep me level headed he made me feel better by keeping it real with me! his friend ship is and always will be greatly appreciated.... but until i get this other opinion i need i'm over and out!
Peace, love and beauty!
Natural Beauty
It was not distant only because, I go down it ever so often. But seeing him did make me miss the old him and when there was an us but it didn't make me miss how hard i got played.
I honestly am my biggest critic, but as i told one of my good friends, after losing him i just simply feel like I'm simply not good enough for "my type" of guy or any potential. In the mist of telling one of my guy friends this, whom i secretly have a crush on, he fell asleep on me... but any who
I'm glad i was able to speak to him to show that i am a bigger person but that fact that i still couldn't speak in a complete sentence because i was embarrassed just made it seem like i want him still which i don't i just wanna know why things didn't work out
after speaking to my friend in Florida who still manages to keep me level headed he made me feel better by keeping it real with me! his friend ship is and always will be greatly appreciated.... but until i get this other opinion i need i'm over and out!
Peace, love and beauty!
Natural Beauty
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