Cant let him go- fiction story... or is it?

Oh yeah... today was a good day! all i wanted was to be his friend again and it happened..
so lemme explain it all started at this party at school, yeah not a great place to meet the man of your dreams but aye it happens, so anyway we didn't say much but I knew it was meant to be... he was a jock and i was a dancer... that works ... I'm pretty and hes handsome but his stats say so much more... anyway.. we hung out after the party but things didn't go quiet as planned... i was convinced it was over... found out he had a girlfriend... things weren't what they seemed in the beginning... shaking my head... typical guy right.

Anyway, we returned to school after a nice long break and in my mind and heart I KNEW I COULDN'T LET HIM GO!  saw him the first day back at school and all those butterflies flooded my stomach like they did when  I First saw him.  He smiled and i smiled and thats when i notice that i HAD to have him.  He pulled me to the side and we chatted a little and then went on about our day.  A text or two here and there; made each one of us smile a lil; hangin out after school became a routine for the two of us but we were still just friends... as time past we began to become sorta attached... at least thats what i forced myself to believe.  I couldn't be wrong after all i was being fed all the GREAT things i wanted to hear, any girl would love to hear these things.  And of course we would fall for everything after a while.

never did i once question the status of the girl he had when i first met him because after all I COULDN'T let him go anyway! He would always be mine.. until one day.. i got a text from a random number asking about him.... in my mind ... if they really wanted to know... they could have just asked him.... im no messenger and not his of course... but the text didnt ask if he was ok or if where he was .... it said......

To be continued!





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feeling alone

... Feeling lonely sucks.. and im not talking about dating wise... yeah that sucks sometimes but id rather be ALONE in that sense... Im talking about family wise.

I have a few friends who lost there closet family memebers due to ill ness or due to some unforescene circumstances and i feel their loneliness.... i do consider myself blessed to have both my parents, both sets of grandparents although one side is very complicated and I'm bless with an extra grandmother and step grand father... but some times i do feel really lonely.

I have friendships with both guys and girls that i value very much, they are always there for me, to make me smile, tell me about myself, correct me when im wrong and listen to all of my drama and bull and give their opinions.  These ppl i know i can call anytime of day but sometimes, im not gonna lie ... i do feel really lonely

I have special guys in my life whom i cant keep to stick around, for the moment their great and i never seem to hate anyone. they have their flaws BUT i have EVEN bigger ones and they see right through it.... with their comfort and conversations and daily attention... i do feel really lonely

the feeling of loneliness is so close to home i feel incomplete without it.. id rather be alone because being alone is creating this WOMAN i am and its making me realize... that the feeling of being alone... is ME!

never really walking alone... because i believe GOD has sent one of his precious Angels to walk with me since birth... and hes watching me <3

& then there was
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The Truth my life with "him"

black is beautiful and when you find that black love, hold on too it make it work because trust a good guy is hard to fine:

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my heart!

My heart screams and YELLS for you but you keep making it hard for me to get near you. But im learning to see this at its advantages. If it werent for you.... I Wouldnt be as strong as i am so THANK you handsome for making me one more strong willed women. & when there can no longer be an us. YOU know why!

=T

Im glad a man would go through so much work by lying to me just to make sure he doesnt lose me ... but im gonna creep too if im not getting the affection the other girl is =I

PDA is a good thing sometimes guys! if shes a lady she'll love it if shes another word i will not speak of she will push you away.  FACT!

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This is how I want to live life... and I shall

be original
be spotaneous
be loving
be crazy
be proper
be loud
be daring
be classy
be unique
be koo koo
its the best way to love in this crazy world!

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